If You're Watch Up There, God, Then Please Help Us Out

Dear Mamaw Cillo,
I love you. So much. I know that you're feeling crappy right now. But you're one of the strongest people I know. You can get through this. I promise you, if the road gets bumpy I'll always be here for you just like all the times you've been here for me. I remember all the times when I was little and we used to draw together. You were the one who got me into art. I don't think I would've found my passion for photography if it weren't for you. You're the amazing woman who I've always looked up to. You're the sweetest person ever and you'd never hurt a fly. I hope that we get those test results in soon and that everything is gunna be okay tonight. I think it will because I have full faith in you. Stay strong. Stay you.







I love you. We all do.
        Sincerely, Randa <3

Let's All Smile and Say "Fuck You"

Today I got my heart hurt. At first I was upset, but now I don't care. There's more guys out there. He's just dumb. I don't need someone like that in my life anyhow. I KNOW I can do better. I'm gunna keep my head up and smile like nothing happened. (: Thank God for friends and good music. <3

30 Day Challenge: Day Ten

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Happy- "Trouble" by Nevershoutnever.

Sad- "Breath Me" by Sia

Bored- Any songs really.

Hyped- Anything upbeat.

Mad- Anything Bless the Fall or August Burns Red

30 Day Challenge: Day Nine

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days.

This wasn't in the past few days, but a week or two ago two of my pictures placed first in the Breck County Fair. (: I've never been that proud.

Step Shouldn't Change Anything

I know that when Papaw died you couldn't stand to be here. It hurt. But it hurt all of us and we didn't leave. You took off to Louisville. That made things worse. Now our only form of communication is Facebook. I haven't got to spend time with you since last July. I know that it was only step, but you were still my grandma. And still are. I miss you. It just hurts that I try to come up and stay with you, but you never even take the time to message me back. I just hope one day you might care enough to miss your granddaughter...

30 Day Challenge: Day Eight

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

• Reconnect with old friends. There's several I haven't seen since school. I miss them.
• Find someone attractive to at least flirt with. I'm lonely.
• Find a unicorn and name it Fred. No, not really. But it's nice to dream big.
• Learn to play "I Just Laugh."

Considering this month is almost over. I doubt any of these things will happen. Still looking for that unicorn though...

30 Day Challenge: Day Seven

A picture of someone/something that has had the biggest impact on you.



Trevan Hunter Merritt. Yeah. Definitely the most impact. We dated for 7 or 8 months. I love him. Not in that "Oh, we're teenagers. Let's fall in love like they do in the movies" kind of crap. I used to love him like a boyfriend. Now I love him like my best friend. Our relationship did take several turns for the worst. That made me depressed severally. He was who I relied on. I talked to him from the time I woke up to the time I fell asleep. I counted on him to help me through the day. Then my mom made it to where we would not be seeing each other anymore. Practically begging us to break up. She never really liked him. I know that looking back we didn't have the best relationship. Someone was always apologizing or helping one another through something. I don't regret it though. A lot of good things resulted as well.